It comes once a
year for everyone and passes by in a flash. I have always wondered about this
day and its significance in our lives. It’s the day we were all born, our
Birthdays.
What’s it about
Birthdays that makes the world go round? Do we really care about Birthdays or
has the pressure of society made this occasion bigger than what it should be?
More so, why was Happy even added as a permanent pre-fix. Why not Wise
Birthday? Sexy Birthday? Or Vintage Single Malt Birthday? Elusive as she is,
happiness is too much of an expectation. Why put this extra pressure on day by
declaring to all and sundry that this day cannot be anything except “Happy” !!
For some it’s a
day they look forward to; for some it’s a day that brings back melancholic
memories apart from the fact that you’re growing older, balder et al. For some
it’s a day of partying and for some it’s a day of no fuss. For me it has always
been a day where I have wanted to give partying a miss, just sit back and be myself.
However, seldom have I succeeded. Call
it peer pressure or the inability to say no to loved ones, I have always ended
up either throwing a party or going out for one, the only exception being my 40th
when I took off alone to Istanbul to bring it in.And at these parties that I
have thrown the question is ask is ..how is actually celebrating ??.. Me for
being alive another year ..or everyone around for the fact that I was born J ..in a nutshell ,who is paying for it !!
Birthdays get more
and more complex as we grow older. The more years that we have been here the
more memories we collect, all varying in intensity and enormity. These memories,
mostly of people who’ve entered and exited our lives, are carefully stacked
away. Birthdays do the honors of pulling open the floodgates to this deluge.
All it takes is a message, a call or a birthday wish from someone to trigger
off this downpour of memories you’d prefer to keep away from on any given day.
These people who were once an integral part of your life are more often than not
no longer around.
It’s sweet that for
me and I’m sure most of us, our mothers still believe that we wake up at 7 in
the morning because that’s the time she calls to wish me a happy birthday. The
calls don’t stop. The messages keep coming one after the other. It was easier
when there was just one form of communication, which was the telephone. People
called you, you thanked them for the wishes, bantered on for a few wasted
minutes and that was the end of it. But in this world of social media, you are
bombarded with wishes from every possible line of communication. God help you
if you feel obligated to reply to all of them personally. You’d spend your
entire day doing only that.
Its not about who
all wished, but sometimes its about those who didn’t and the questions on why
they didn’t. Did they forget MY birthday? Are they upset? When day gets over
and in our mental excel sheet we make a list of who called and who didn’t ..is
it true that the pleasure of people calling and wishing us is overtaken by the
dampner that envelopes us when we make a list of those who didn’t ??
Every year you
will have some new people, seasonal friends if I may call them, who will join
the party that wishes you and then go away the next year. If you are doing well
and life has been kind to you, strangers will wish you on your birthday and if
things are not going well, that list will diminish. As a famous film maker told
me once, the measure of your success in Bollywood can be measured by the amount
of flowers you get on your Birthday until the day the flowers will stop coming.
Another fday when we are smacked right in the face with our professional
standing in life J
For some people I
know, as for myself, birthdays are also a time to get in touch with your
mortality. In your youth you never question it. But once you get older its
almost like the clock is ticking backwards and not forward, a year less, like a
countdown. And every year you knock off another year
So whats the big
deal about Birthdays ??
I don’t know the
answers, but as I get older, more questions will arise. I guess it’s a way of
justifying my resistance to this futile practice of counting years. Everyday
should be a re-birth, friends shouldn’t be seasonal and hey ..who ever needed a
reason to party?
So Happy Birthday
to me J